Columbus week
Even though I don't have midterms to study for during Halloween, this has certainly been a "hellish" week. No, it hasn't been that bad, just very exhausting. I've noticed that I've been using the words "tired" and "exhausted" quite frequently lately. It's okay though. I know a lot of my friends who've done more and didn't get a nervous breakdown until way later. Not to make light of this, but I feel that I can still handle it. I prefer being busy anyway. I have four days of regualr work, one day of research and one day of volunteer work. That leaves one day (or not) of rest. That's my week. If it were school and studying, I don't think I'd be as tired. Working in all three places makes me tired. It takes a toll on my body. The commute makes it more tiring than it should be. I drive through traffic back and forth twice a week going to LA. I know there are a lot of people who take that morning commute every day. So, in a sense, I'm lucky. It's just that I also don't have the weekends free, or get paid to do those jobs either. I know It will pay off eventually though.
I started this week I with Monday off due to Columbus day (government and federal employees only). I was going to meet up with a high school friend that day, but that got postponed. I also worked overtime Tues, Wed, Thurs and this Saturday.
In the middle of the week I spoke with one of my old friends. Weirdness. It was still nice, however uncomfortable. I don't think I want to do it again anytime soon.
I got in contact with another friend from high school by chance on Thursday. Haven't spoken to him since his break up with one of my bestfriends. Too bad he wasn't able to get into UCLA while I was there. Maybe I could have mediated better before all that mess came about. Oh well whatever.
On the 13th, it was my father's parents' 59th wedding anniversary, so I went there after work on Thursday. (I never really had a close relationship with them growing up. Infact, I've purposely distanced myself from them. I have my reasons. Right now we're in polite terms. I'm satisfied with that.) Though I've ever taken much concern towards them, I was surprised to see how old they've become and how weak. I've always known and seen them to be very vibrant and tough. They've lost a bit of that spunk over the years, that rigid tough exterior. Coupled with diabetes and old age, my grandmother's memory isn't as great as it was. On occasion, it would act up and she'd say random chromatic things. It's quite distressing for the people who knew her, especially my dad. He's always been somewhat of an outcast of the family (even though now he's basically the only one they can count on) and he's been trying to win over his mother's love since the beginning. It's a bit sad. No matter how hard they treat him, deep down, all he wants is for her to show him affection he's been looking elsewhere for. I feel guilty at times for being so frustrated with my father, our disagreements, his stubbornness, his overprotective nature, his excessive worry. Sometimes I don't know what to do. Alot of the time I just close off from him, because he doesn't seem to understand despite everything we've done. I love my dad, but I'm so lucky I have a mother who I can really talk to. She is the greatest.
Friday I had research and I closed the lab. I did some coding and a few tests. I feel a bit distressed about the grades I'm seeing on the transcripts I'm coding. I'm scared for the youth of today. I've never seen so many basic and underperforming scores in my life. I'm disheartend at the lack of students taking AP classes. At this rate, I can actually understand why people regard my brother and sister as geniuses despite their below par (in my opinion) performances. Seriously, grades have been quite a disappointment to my family lately especially after I graduated. Seeing letters on the bottom half of the grading spectrum has been happening more now than I've ever seen or received in my lifetime. *sigh*. Kids today aren't dumber. I know they aren't. However, they are so much more lazy, distracted, and unmotivated. I wish I could do something to change that.
On a lighter note, even though this doesn't count for this week, I want to give a MAJOR CONGRATULATIONS ;D to Coach Karl Dorell and the UCLA FOOTBALL team for kicking ranked 9th Cal butt last week. We're currently ranked 12th. That's good enough for me =) We have hope! All Hail Coach Dorell! I've said it before, and I'll say it again, they should have sacked Toledo a long time ago! Go BRUINS! \(^o^)/
I started this week I with Monday off due to Columbus day (government and federal employees only). I was going to meet up with a high school friend that day, but that got postponed. I also worked overtime Tues, Wed, Thurs and this Saturday.
In the middle of the week I spoke with one of my old friends. Weirdness. It was still nice, however uncomfortable. I don't think I want to do it again anytime soon.
I got in contact with another friend from high school by chance on Thursday. Haven't spoken to him since his break up with one of my bestfriends. Too bad he wasn't able to get into UCLA while I was there. Maybe I could have mediated better before all that mess came about. Oh well whatever.
On the 13th, it was my father's parents' 59th wedding anniversary, so I went there after work on Thursday. (I never really had a close relationship with them growing up. Infact, I've purposely distanced myself from them. I have my reasons. Right now we're in polite terms. I'm satisfied with that.) Though I've ever taken much concern towards them, I was surprised to see how old they've become and how weak. I've always known and seen them to be very vibrant and tough. They've lost a bit of that spunk over the years, that rigid tough exterior. Coupled with diabetes and old age, my grandmother's memory isn't as great as it was. On occasion, it would act up and she'd say random chromatic things. It's quite distressing for the people who knew her, especially my dad. He's always been somewhat of an outcast of the family (even though now he's basically the only one they can count on) and he's been trying to win over his mother's love since the beginning. It's a bit sad. No matter how hard they treat him, deep down, all he wants is for her to show him affection he's been looking elsewhere for. I feel guilty at times for being so frustrated with my father, our disagreements, his stubbornness, his overprotective nature, his excessive worry. Sometimes I don't know what to do. Alot of the time I just close off from him, because he doesn't seem to understand despite everything we've done. I love my dad, but I'm so lucky I have a mother who I can really talk to. She is the greatest.
Friday I had research and I closed the lab. I did some coding and a few tests. I feel a bit distressed about the grades I'm seeing on the transcripts I'm coding. I'm scared for the youth of today. I've never seen so many basic and underperforming scores in my life. I'm disheartend at the lack of students taking AP classes. At this rate, I can actually understand why people regard my brother and sister as geniuses despite their below par (in my opinion) performances. Seriously, grades have been quite a disappointment to my family lately especially after I graduated. Seeing letters on the bottom half of the grading spectrum has been happening more now than I've ever seen or received in my lifetime. *sigh*. Kids today aren't dumber. I know they aren't. However, they are so much more lazy, distracted, and unmotivated. I wish I could do something to change that.
On a lighter note, even though this doesn't count for this week, I want to give a MAJOR CONGRATULATIONS ;D to Coach Karl Dorell and the UCLA FOOTBALL team for kicking ranked 9th Cal butt last week. We're currently ranked 12th. That's good enough for me =) We have hope! All Hail Coach Dorell! I've said it before, and I'll say it again, they should have sacked Toledo a long time ago! Go BRUINS! \(^o^)/
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