Moving Pains
So it's that time of the year again. Getting ready for another move. I just got back from having dinner with Cris and Mark. The place I checked out today was even worse I think than the last one. I was still kind of considering it given how desperate I was getting, but Cris said "absolutely not." He said maybe he would be able to stomach it, but he wouldn't let me even consider the place. *sigh* He said he knew my standards, and well I guess he's right. I'd commit and then regret it heavily. Mark offered their place for me to stay, but of course I couldn't do that to them, especially since they only have one bathroom :P but it was nice a cozy at their place with the Christmas tree and all. Felt a little bit like my parents' house but more trendy furniture.
While we were eating dinner, Mark and Cris were telling me about the clients they've had. Mark is a manager at a major retail store in Century City, so they get a lot of celebrities there. Sometimes when I hear him talk about it I can't help but drop my jaw at how often they get to mingle with them. Cris, part-time works at another branch of the same store and also does side jobs as a personal organizer for major execs and high profile celebrities. One of which was the ever so hot RDJr. I couldn't help but squeal. Of course Cris, being the so out of touch guy that he is, didn't even realize who their client was until he put two and two together after seeing so much Iron Man memorabilia in their mansion and the receipt that said Downey. Oh CRIS! I can't believe you were able to go through his mansion and touch and organize his stuff. What a lucky bastard you are. UGH!!!! So hot. lol. Anyway...it just makes you realize how surreal your life can be living in LA. Mark is in constant contact with celebs including Paris, Christina, Britney, Jessica Alba, Eva Longoria, Rhianna, and some other people I could care less about. But it's just so funny to hear about how some stars are really nice while some are full of themselves and others have their PA's basically OCD because they are so anal. They get paid so well to just organize things it's ridiculous! It makes me think that I've definitely gone into the wrong job and wonder why I wasted so much time and money on my education. However, in such a business, it's certainly a "who you know" kind of thing. So everything in that business is via word of mouth. I can only imagine how much they make per hour let alone a "day rate" for someone to fly them over for 3 weeks to organize their mansion in Connecticut or something. Geez. And I'm here busting my brain and breaking my back for free. *sigh* I'm sure if I wanted to Mark could get me a job, but just thinking of people treating me like a faceless void to do the job that I do just because they threw money at my face doesn't sit well with me. It would feel too demeaning even if that was my job to be invisible, organize, and stay silent. I'm not a mindless drone and I'm not your servant. I'm definitely not one who would ever want to sit there and shut up and not be acknowledged even if they did pay me $100 an hour.
So anyway that was interesting. It's fun to talk to Cris all the time. This time I didn't feel as rushed since Cris invited me for dinner and wanted me to stay and talk. Our dynamic hasn't changed at all and he agreed. I told him that he hasn't changed much since we were in college and he said that's true that our dynamic hasn't changed. I told him I think I've changed though. He said he said he definitely noticed. Which made me curious. He said he noticed last year when we went out in Manhattan Beach, that I was more outgoing and talking more and leading the conversation. It's funny how he notices small things like that. I guess I have never been out with Cris without the regular group of people we hang out with, so that was a side of me he never really saw. Whenever I am with him and our regular group, I tend to let them talk, because I know they need to expel that energy, and I listen. Cris needs that venting. I only vent once he's done and ready, so I don't tire him out. Now that he seems a lot happier, I no longer have to be the wall that stays silent and listens, but can finally talk :P, but it's not like my life is all that bad. I actually really like where I'm at and I feel really happy (despite poverty and homelessness). I told this to Mark and he laughed. It's really hard to get a word in with Cris and Rahil when they're together. That's why I like it when it's just Cris and I, because I eventually can relax and laugh and poke fun (at Cris) and be myself...kind of. being around Cris sometimes makes me feel so young, as in like I'm his little sister he needs to coddle, even though technically I'm older than him by 4 months. Cris said he misses walking around with me and staying up at 2am going out to watch a movie and just remembering how relaxing and destressing it was. I never knew how much he enjoyed those times we just walked aimlessly around UCLA, but it was definitely a lot of fun to me too. I miss it a lot as well.
While we were walking back to his place (the apartment we went to was close by), we were talking about friendships. He wanted me to come up for dinner and I didn't want to intrude, but he insisted and said he wanted me to be there, so that made me feel bad to not come up. He has a way of doing that--making me feel guilty. So anyway, we talk about his job and his position. He's making such a great progress, but he hasn't fully been emraced by the staff. I told him he needs to open up and be more friendly. Cris said that he knows, but he's just socially awkward. To a degree it's true, but I think it's more with him being rigid and particular than really anything else. He comes off as strict, scary and cold. But he's very sweet, caring, and very reliable. I can always call Cris out of the blue and if can help me, he will. I feel bad sometimes at the few times I ask for his help, but it seems like he enjoys it whenever I do >_>. I always feel like a helpless little girl when I'm with Cris cause he's just that much more mature and independent than I am. But then I hang out with my other friends, and I feel like I'm so old. Oh well. Cris is a very old soul I suppose.
Anyway, Cris says it's hard for him to be social, and I said, but I said "you're friends with me aren't you?" but then he said "yeah well you're kind of socially awkward too" lol he has a point. But people aren't as afraid of me and intimidated by me as he is. I'm just glad Cris is my friend, my friend who got to manhandle RDJr's stuff. *sigh* I wish I could have done that XD
Cris even thinks I'd never get a eyebrow piercing. Oh I'll show all of you one day. I'll get a tatoo or something just to spite everyone and then lazer it off lol. Anywho I'm tired and have two papers left to finish. Cris says he doesn't know how I can work, do school, practicum and research. Well I don't know how he is able to be a social chair, teach 1-4 Magnet, and work on his teaching cred plus work on the side. See Cris, we're pretty even. :P
While we were eating dinner, Mark and Cris were telling me about the clients they've had. Mark is a manager at a major retail store in Century City, so they get a lot of celebrities there. Sometimes when I hear him talk about it I can't help but drop my jaw at how often they get to mingle with them. Cris, part-time works at another branch of the same store and also does side jobs as a personal organizer for major execs and high profile celebrities. One of which was the ever so hot RDJr. I couldn't help but squeal. Of course Cris, being the so out of touch guy that he is, didn't even realize who their client was until he put two and two together after seeing so much Iron Man memorabilia in their mansion and the receipt that said Downey. Oh CRIS! I can't believe you were able to go through his mansion and touch and organize his stuff. What a lucky bastard you are. UGH!!!! So hot. lol. Anyway...it just makes you realize how surreal your life can be living in LA. Mark is in constant contact with celebs including Paris, Christina, Britney, Jessica Alba, Eva Longoria, Rhianna, and some other people I could care less about. But it's just so funny to hear about how some stars are really nice while some are full of themselves and others have their PA's basically OCD because they are so anal. They get paid so well to just organize things it's ridiculous! It makes me think that I've definitely gone into the wrong job and wonder why I wasted so much time and money on my education. However, in such a business, it's certainly a "who you know" kind of thing. So everything in that business is via word of mouth. I can only imagine how much they make per hour let alone a "day rate" for someone to fly them over for 3 weeks to organize their mansion in Connecticut or something. Geez. And I'm here busting my brain and breaking my back for free. *sigh* I'm sure if I wanted to Mark could get me a job, but just thinking of people treating me like a faceless void to do the job that I do just because they threw money at my face doesn't sit well with me. It would feel too demeaning even if that was my job to be invisible, organize, and stay silent. I'm not a mindless drone and I'm not your servant. I'm definitely not one who would ever want to sit there and shut up and not be acknowledged even if they did pay me $100 an hour.
So anyway that was interesting. It's fun to talk to Cris all the time. This time I didn't feel as rushed since Cris invited me for dinner and wanted me to stay and talk. Our dynamic hasn't changed at all and he agreed. I told him that he hasn't changed much since we were in college and he said that's true that our dynamic hasn't changed. I told him I think I've changed though. He said he said he definitely noticed. Which made me curious. He said he noticed last year when we went out in Manhattan Beach, that I was more outgoing and talking more and leading the conversation. It's funny how he notices small things like that. I guess I have never been out with Cris without the regular group of people we hang out with, so that was a side of me he never really saw. Whenever I am with him and our regular group, I tend to let them talk, because I know they need to expel that energy, and I listen. Cris needs that venting. I only vent once he's done and ready, so I don't tire him out. Now that he seems a lot happier, I no longer have to be the wall that stays silent and listens, but can finally talk :P, but it's not like my life is all that bad. I actually really like where I'm at and I feel really happy (despite poverty and homelessness). I told this to Mark and he laughed. It's really hard to get a word in with Cris and Rahil when they're together. That's why I like it when it's just Cris and I, because I eventually can relax and laugh and poke fun (at Cris) and be myself...kind of. being around Cris sometimes makes me feel so young, as in like I'm his little sister he needs to coddle, even though technically I'm older than him by 4 months. Cris said he misses walking around with me and staying up at 2am going out to watch a movie and just remembering how relaxing and destressing it was. I never knew how much he enjoyed those times we just walked aimlessly around UCLA, but it was definitely a lot of fun to me too. I miss it a lot as well.
While we were walking back to his place (the apartment we went to was close by), we were talking about friendships. He wanted me to come up for dinner and I didn't want to intrude, but he insisted and said he wanted me to be there, so that made me feel bad to not come up. He has a way of doing that--making me feel guilty. So anyway, we talk about his job and his position. He's making such a great progress, but he hasn't fully been emraced by the staff. I told him he needs to open up and be more friendly. Cris said that he knows, but he's just socially awkward. To a degree it's true, but I think it's more with him being rigid and particular than really anything else. He comes off as strict, scary and cold. But he's very sweet, caring, and very reliable. I can always call Cris out of the blue and if can help me, he will. I feel bad sometimes at the few times I ask for his help, but it seems like he enjoys it whenever I do >_>. I always feel like a helpless little girl when I'm with Cris cause he's just that much more mature and independent than I am. But then I hang out with my other friends, and I feel like I'm so old. Oh well. Cris is a very old soul I suppose.
Anyway, Cris says it's hard for him to be social, and I said, but I said "you're friends with me aren't you?" but then he said "yeah well you're kind of socially awkward too" lol he has a point. But people aren't as afraid of me and intimidated by me as he is. I'm just glad Cris is my friend, my friend who got to manhandle RDJr's stuff. *sigh* I wish I could have done that XD
Cris even thinks I'd never get a eyebrow piercing. Oh I'll show all of you one day. I'll get a tatoo or something just to spite everyone and then lazer it off lol. Anywho I'm tired and have two papers left to finish. Cris says he doesn't know how I can work, do school, practicum and research. Well I don't know how he is able to be a social chair, teach 1-4 Magnet, and work on his teaching cred plus work on the side. See Cris, we're pretty even. :P
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