Everything's gonna be alright
Things have been pretty hard these past few months. Day by day I try my best not to think about things too much and just take things as they come. It has definitely saved my sanity keeping things at bay and away from my current state, but sometimes you don't know how hard things are on you until someone asks and really takes time to listen. Maybe rain does that to people.
Today I had one of the biggest scares of my life, but the sad thing was, I couldn't do anything about it. There was no use worrying all day, so I convinced myself that I could only start really worrying after I knew enough to worry about. That thought kept me sane and in perspective for the time being.
On top of the many things I do daily, I had my time mapped out from the time I set foot out my door to the time I took the elevator back to my car on the way home. Apart from conferences, meetings, counseling, and intervetions and consultations, I had an exit interview today as part of my requirements to graduate. The scare I had in the morning kept me up, and I used that time to prepare (not advisable btw). That's as much "preparation" I had for a major graduation requirement, but I was over it.
By lunch time, half of my day was over, and things were looking up. By 3:10pm, my case conference ended and was productive. The cases we went over were definitely complicated ones. It was nice to hear psychs brainstorm and go through the cases thoughtfully. I was glad I was able to keep up and even contribute myself. I also caught up with my field mentor last year along with my replacement who was with him. He's definitely the kindest and most helpful field mentor I ever had. While the placement was not ideal, and he wasn't the most organized or on time, he gave me really great support and feedback and was very confident in my abilities. The freedom he gave me to do what Ineeded and to even accomodate me in the things I had to do helped me immensely and made my practicum experience that much better. If only I had that now.
After the case conference, I had my exit interview. I got there early...by 3:35 or so. I end up seeing my friend Suzy and we wait it out until 5:30 when our interview started. Before that, we were polishing our resume and reliving our gripes about our sites, cases, and the interview process itself. In the end, the interview process went so much faster than I had imagined even though we had 50 minutes total including debriefing and looking over scenarios. All in all I had positive feedback and passed the interview. I just wish I had practiced even a little bit before the interview to do a better job. Fortunately I came out more competent than I thought (eye contact, jittery voice, and sweaty palms I guess were not as magnified as I had imagined). :)
Right after my interview I get good news. I thank God. I am grateful. Home safe, healthy body, mind at peace. In the end, that's what I'm grateful for.
Today I had one of the biggest scares of my life, but the sad thing was, I couldn't do anything about it. There was no use worrying all day, so I convinced myself that I could only start really worrying after I knew enough to worry about. That thought kept me sane and in perspective for the time being.
On top of the many things I do daily, I had my time mapped out from the time I set foot out my door to the time I took the elevator back to my car on the way home. Apart from conferences, meetings, counseling, and intervetions and consultations, I had an exit interview today as part of my requirements to graduate. The scare I had in the morning kept me up, and I used that time to prepare (not advisable btw). That's as much "preparation" I had for a major graduation requirement, but I was over it.
By lunch time, half of my day was over, and things were looking up. By 3:10pm, my case conference ended and was productive. The cases we went over were definitely complicated ones. It was nice to hear psychs brainstorm and go through the cases thoughtfully. I was glad I was able to keep up and even contribute myself. I also caught up with my field mentor last year along with my replacement who was with him. He's definitely the kindest and most helpful field mentor I ever had. While the placement was not ideal, and he wasn't the most organized or on time, he gave me really great support and feedback and was very confident in my abilities. The freedom he gave me to do what Ineeded and to even accomodate me in the things I had to do helped me immensely and made my practicum experience that much better. If only I had that now.
After the case conference, I had my exit interview. I got there early...by 3:35 or so. I end up seeing my friend Suzy and we wait it out until 5:30 when our interview started. Before that, we were polishing our resume and reliving our gripes about our sites, cases, and the interview process itself. In the end, the interview process went so much faster than I had imagined even though we had 50 minutes total including debriefing and looking over scenarios. All in all I had positive feedback and passed the interview. I just wish I had practiced even a little bit before the interview to do a better job. Fortunately I came out more competent than I thought (eye contact, jittery voice, and sweaty palms I guess were not as magnified as I had imagined). :)
Right after my interview I get good news. I thank God. I am grateful. Home safe, healthy body, mind at peace. In the end, that's what I'm grateful for.
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Thursday, February 04, 2010
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