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Saturday, March 15, 2008

Weirdness

So today was College Fest on campus apparently. I knew it was coming, but I didn't know it was today. For the most part, the day went smoothly. SEO finally found my contract and said I should be on record in 10 days (yeah right, like I haven't heard that one before!). I was able to finish my CAS linking subtest paper and left Von der Ahe before closing. Of course the library was not immune to the noise outside. Lo and behold I find out that it is being held right there at the sunken garden next to St. Robs. I wasn't exactly decked out in rock concert gear, and I'm sure my backpack would piss some people off, so I decided to be a good girl and tread to the computer lab in the basement a few feet away from the stage (it was like thunder in there for a good three hours until Hellogoodbye and Wyclef Jean finally ended their music). I instantly became a fan of HG and Wyclef isn't that bad either. I saw HG a little on stage while I was headed to the lab and appreciated the live music while I continued to type up my case study assignment. Near the end of the concert, a journalist came in the lab a bit miffed about his contact with the program as he could not obtain his passes and had no way of getting in touch with her apart from e-mail. Very stupid I say especially when you're at a concert in a foreign area. Anyway I give him my sympathies and say sorry I could not help and try to give him some suggestions to find out where to go. The back of the stage isn't that big nor is it that far anyway.

Long story short, I think he's a bit buzzed and pissed, but also wants to either kill time, or is just trying to hit on me and amuse himself while in his current state. I am obviously very busy and not partying outside and he goes into this whole "you do all this for everyone, but have you done anything for yourself?" type deal. Of course I never back down from a valid argument. He, of course had some valid points that I have already been over a few times in my life, but in the few minutes he's known me, he does not realize how hard I've worked to get to where I am, simply because I enjoy what I do and what I will do once I am done. I couldn't stress enough that people make sacrifices and that includes studying instead of partying on a Friday night and he was encroaching on my study time!!! Anyway, I figured he wouldn't go away, so I decided to be polite and just answer his philosophical questions. Granted our conversation wasn't exactly the most intellectual, it was meaningful enough to have me reaffirm my choices and beliefs. After all was said and done, the topic of "do you have a boyfriend" comes up a few times over, granted in a more subtle way. In the end, I was forced to facebook him. If only he know how much I do not like placing random people as my friends. However, he was sincere and pretty truthful with everything he told me thus far. Apparently he is the son of the current speaker of the house of representatives of Hawaii. Weird. He thought I was either Chinese or part Japanese-Hawaiian. Nice try, just because he is all of those. Before we parted ways guided him along his way, he invited me to a party in Long Beach--which of course he knew I was probably too busy for. Man if only these people knew just how busy being in grad school is. Sadly only a modest 4% of the population will ever understand--most don't even finish their programs.

(While searching for appropriate statistics, I came across Curtis Bowman's blog about the perils of graduate school in academia. In a way I'm glad I have something else to fall back on besides being a professor at a university.)

In the end, the experience robbed me of about 30 mins worth of productivity (not that I was all that productive before), and gained an extra facebook friend at the expense of two phone calls to Hawaii, and was probably hit on by a politician's son (I am pretty dense, but I don't think anyone would bother someone in deep concentration piled to their ears in paperwork just to strike a conversation). I think he was a bit disappointed that I wasn't enthralled or showing any enthusiasm when he said who his dad was. Sorry dude, but regardless of which politician your dad is, even if it was George Bush, I really could care less. Now, if you were the son of a rockstar, then keep talking :P

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

After finally getting hold of my student and working with her on probes and testing her phonological processing skills, it seems like the additional information I found out has opened a can of worms. Rather than feeling more competent, I realized that the reason for her inconsistent performance is beyond comprehension and reading problems. For one, she has poor vision. Not being able to see clearly can make it difficult for anyone to pay attention and read. After observing her a few times, looking through her files, teacher comments, and observations, I realized she indeed has attention problems. It is difficult for her to keep focus and stay on task. Despite trying to concentrate, she becomes very easily distracted from noise and activity around her more so than the rest of her peers.

I feel bad for her in the sense that I know what factors are contributing to her problem, but I have very little power over what can be done in the classroom apart from my case study recommendation at the end of class. Who knows if they'll actually follow what I recommend. I can only hope that my interventions with her will help even if it is just eight sessions. Her home environment is also a challenge. She may be transferred to another school and I feel like she needs a more stable environment than the one she is getting right now. With an over crowded classroom and constant noise and chaos in her surroundings, I'm surprised any of the children are able to concentrate in class.

Yesterday I had an extremely long day. By 7:50 am I was in Compton doing my observation, interview, and testing for my kid. I spent another hour looking through her files and school history, which made me feel sad learning the things I did. You can see a child's life and problems unfold before your eyes just by looking at a bunch of paper. Her parent doesn't seem to have to right judgment to help despite her best intentions for her child. When I finally got to campus, I tried to read the four chapters we were supposed to for one of my classes and take notes. I ended up reading two before my first class began. Luckily the read was straightforward and pleasantly familiar from my undergrad days (sometimes I wish went into cognitive psych instead as I initially planned). Class began and I realized I brought the wrong book for my first class. I got my WISC psych report and protocol back. I was very happy to find that I had no errors and received positive comments on my work. In contrast, I had to rewrite my other paper for my second class, because it wasn't what my other professor expected (I just continued my format from the one from my other class). Note the major discrepancy in their teaching methods and preferences even though they are teaching similar things. I was very annoyed. They need to get their expectations from us in sync.

Anywho, by the time we had our quiz and class discussions for our 2nd class at 8:00pm, I was long gone and no longer able to focus. I could feel my mind not absorbing anything. I wasn't able to think critically or process information written on the power point. It was pretty sad. Luckily, I was able to contribute something coherent during the last few minutes of class. Being with a stimulated group helps revive your brain sometimes. After fixing up some food to fuel my brain, I continued to check up on school matters until I fell asleep via exhaustion (we lug around tons of crap too btw and I was in my school psychologist frock). I woke up today (refused to get up) until 11:00am. Our group counseling is postponed till week after next and I ditched a possible meeting with my research supervisor and a visit to academic affairs due to my exhaustion. I will face the consequences of my actions next week. Right now, I need to work on 7 papers due next week (monday and tuesday) and organize a time to be observed and critiqued on my test administration. D: I'm just glad I'm paired up with my intern and don't have to drive to Mission Viejo to get it done. I can't wait for Easter man.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Currently taking a break from insanity. I don't know how I will fair at the end of this semester with all our work crapped in the middle of the term and everything not going as "they" planned. I'm overwhelmed in large part due to my crappy job and things that are out of my control. Today is also my parent's 27th wedding anniversary, so Happy Anniversary to my Nanay and Tatay :)

It was also my friends' birthday Monica and Lindsey. They are very fun and awesome girls. I miss them a lot, especially Moni! :)

At the moment, my group counseling sessions at Santa Monica High School are near completed. Unfortunately they are having the CAHSEE next week. Due to block sched, we can't hold a session and the week after is their spring break. So I won't be seeing the boys until First week of April for the last session. Weird. Anyway I'm glad they're doing better in school. I was scared that they wouldn't improve at all during the group counseling.

I am having problems getting hold of my student in Compton. She's been absent on all the days I've tried to observe and test her. That is unfortunate since I have a meeting with my prof on Monday and have nothing to show her. I'm going back again tomorrow. I seriously hope she is there this time, otherwise, my prof better answer my email and resched our meeting on Monday.

Wed I have a meeting with my research supervisor. I am dreading it. Last time it worked out okay, but I haven't been working for several weeks and I meet with her once a month D: The research work is lonely and the most tedious and boring I've ever done...and I've done quite a bit of research too.

In the next few weeks I have about 8 papers to turn in varying in length. Most are about 3 pages in length and a few are about 10 pages. I also have a Power point presentation to do, a intervention demonstration, and a case study to turn in. Also about 8 pages. I'm also already low on the gas from driving from school to school and site to site and I just filled up the tank on Tuesday. *sigh* As much as I love not being a burden to my parents and being financially independent, I don't think I want to take on another job like this one. Freaking ay. It's just another thing I have to worry about and I haven't even been paid yet. As far as I know, I've been doing free labor, which is very discouraging for me to work. Anyway, my rent increase is my only motivation to keep plowing through and the crappy expensive crap I need to buy to complete my SCOSD kit. *sigh* Then after all is done this semester, summer school awaits and practicum placement :[